A new track on life

Life has been... haha hectic.

No matter what, the road is still long and blurry at the end.
I may not know how it will end but I'm molding myself into something which i have never foreseen and all I can hope is for the better.

I had to..sacrifice..
I had to..be patient..
I had to do many..

May not be the best out there now, but I know it means alot of what I decided upon.

"I'm not born to follow"

I'm making my own decisions, I hope I wont fall..


Peace

Sawadikap!

Im sipping on some hot chocolate and typing this is on Microsoft words cause there’s no wi-fi here in the coffee house, turtle village.

Guess where I am? Hehe, I’m at phuket xD I feel so classy right now, having a drink in some luxurious coffee house with a laptop. Im still in shock that I am actually outside Malaysia right now, I thought I would be stuck for another year or two. But its happening, and it feelssss…weird. Haha. Im here with la familia. And ya know what, the reason we’re able to come here is because J.W Marriot hotel gave the offer of 5 days 4 nights free stay to my mother’s friend and she passed it along to us. Bless your soul friend of my mother’s XD

First off, I’m having holiday for 5 days here but the day after or so I’ll be having exams :/ and currently I have to reside to doing my assignments at night in the hotel.

Its alright, I feel..good doing assignments here better than anywhere else. I can actually finish my Accounting Information System II assignment (a part of it) In an hour. I was surprised and wasn’t motioned to facebook for every minute whilst doing it. How weird..lol.

Phuket is alright, has an atmosphere similar to Malacca and Penang. :D They say Bangkok is like Kuala Lumpur, would try to go there if I can (once I get my moolah).

Once I finish off another assignment (business law or da other part of AIS assignment or knw. Economy) I might go check out Phutong, heart of phuket. Most travelers go there, and its like 2 hours drive from here :/ J.W Marriot is located right next to the airport and basically near the entrance of Phuket. How convenient , lol.

It’s the second day here..So I’ll take my time and finish up the assignments by tonight hopefully, reason is Im given 24 hours free internet services. So gotta make full use of it and study my managerial accounting :/ Heyh, Im still having fun alright not just studies..lol.

Will write more later. I need to finish my egg benedict :p .

Cheers peeps!

IM IN LOVE

La la la~

Cheers to all :D

Unpredictable and doubtful..
Life is,
I am,
And so are you behind that mask,

I wonder at the thoughts of living life, love and many others,
I do not want to wonder or wish for a day, would love to see how a different a day in my mind.
Is it possible to not wonder about your love each day,
Why is it hard for me if it's not for you.

Is it fading..?
Ahah, there I go with 'love'
I wonder if it is true, I wonder too much about it..
I guess I am lover, not a fighter,
Yet I fight with it,
Causing havoc in my mind every single time,
Clashing thoughts and wonders

oh how you trouble me..

Leave me be for once, I beg you..

I beg for wings,
I beg for memories..
No more, I live the way it is at this moment,
*sigh*
It has always been a say..

Frustation

Do not look at them!
Do not listen to them!
Think back of your good memories..
Laugh away the fear or complications
It may seem wrong from a third person's view but we do what we do,
Fuck them thoughts
Accept it and move on
Take it as a lesson
A lesson that does not bore but entertains others
Laughing at you, fixing their view of you
Laugh at them instead
Hide behind that mask
Protect your heart

Life so far 2009

I learn alot and I can safely say I have grown out of my childlike self..But of course the child is in here all the time. My mindset has changed and I remember reminding myself through paper yearly, well technology takes over..

I think I wrote a post earlier on about last year, if Im not mistaken..lazy to see..

Im amazed with myself..not being a total selfish dumbass o anythin

Just amazed with the progress and lessons people learn in one life, I learn from others, I dont learn from books.. Even studies, basic studies in uni I learn through word of mouth not text.
I dont know whether this applies to others, but it does to me.

Im learning to improve myself in every possible way, Im learning through the smallest things like presentation in class, to djclub to big things like magic :) I love learning! its awesome!
And owh owh! Im reading now..Finished 3 books, currently reading the last series for lian hearn, the choronical of the otory clan..awesome book, thanks alisya!

Gawd..why am I rambling when I have tons to read for exam tommorow..lol
=_= o well..

I cant wait to ride that plane and see new places..its getting closer I can feel it :)

Rawr! Life goals being fulfilled lil by lil, gonna savour in them.. *stomach grumbles*

K time for my favourite part of my daily activities, fooddd :B

Peace ya'all!

Message

Life never seems to be what you want it to be,
Said not to distance and eyes,
I have forsaken what most others would think is worthless,
Felt not the feelings,
I am lying,
If only comes to minds at all times,
I want this and I want that,
My heart no..my soul..grief in sadness,
life never seems to be what you wan it to be

Fear not for I have forsaken them,
And nothing can be done even with words i have said,
I cant change reality,
yet I alter the fantasy too many times,
Fall down my dear,
Fall down..
Its time to walk on the pavement,
Tear not my dear,
For theres many in life..

Two new obsessions

I been goin all nutz cuz exam is near!gah! first one tommorow! lol
The closer exam is, the more lazy i get..

So yeah been infront of the laptop for a long time :/
And cuz of that im bound to go search for somethiin irrelevent from studies XD
I went and go randomly searching for songs in youtube. And the newest craze are these two AWESOMEEE artists!

LENNY KRAVITZ & CAMILLE X3

Ahhh! Shitez! I never really notice them earlier :)


Lenny is freakin awesomeeee, his albums all of em' manage to make great hitz. (Long for the days lyrics arent just 2 sentences repeated)
My fav so far from him are I belong to you, dancing till' dawn, again and the first ever song i got exposed to him since i was a kid, fly away!

Gah... I been having thoughts is there anyone able to make that cool guitar beats like the 70's.. I FORGOTTEN ALL ABT LENNY KRAVITZ!

That dude is freakin awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
I dont really like the rock genre but he is one of the exceptions, his music is amazing and lyrical.
Especially, im thinking about you.. It's a song dedicated to his mother.. You guys should go have a listen :B

And it doesnt hurt that he is freakin hawt XD (minus the piercings on the chest of course lol)

Most of his songs seems sensual and oh-so good and its trueee XD i lab it! my playlist on itunes is on repeat of this guy..he is amazingness ness




And this other cool artist, camille! She is the powaaaaaaaaa!
I knew her thru the song 'the creeps' *nudge*likwei*nudge*, and well she was the original artist for that song..
Shes french but she sings english too...
O M G! HER HUMOUR IS AMAZINGGG!

The song that i listened to firsthand other than the creeps.. is the money note!

I LOVE HER!
I LOVE HER!
I LOVE HER!

dont take my words on it go check it out yourself o_o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNO-8B05YLg - MONEY NOTE!


She is freakin amazing! Eventhou she seems all games, but her voice is seriously amazinggggg!

Check out one of her acoustic live performance, she makes the beats by herself and on the spot..
This woman, i have to bow to..lol




p.s : I AM VERY HAPPY AND CONTENT THESE DAYS hehehehehhehe :B

p.S.S : i dont mind goin to lenny's concert and cuz im able to sing along to all his songs XD HE IS THE COOLESTTT

Mi hermano

Name : Seth Eu Kee Yam

Age : 3 (by Sept 11)

Hobby: Taking pictures with ma phone..seriously..everytime I come back he goes straight! To ma phone -_-… 1/3 of ma albums are his pictures..taken by him.. if I saved them that is ..lol

Favourite Song : Linkin Park- faint, bob the builder theme song

Favourite Food : everything including vegetables :/

Favourite character: Thomas the train

Girlfriend : Madison ( I think he got another now :/)

Ethic : ¾ Chinese ¼ arab LOOL XD

Weight : Big enough -_-

Height : Tall enough lol

Some random kid..he was cute so yeah lool. Yes it's a HE
O-o...Bonito! XD





Ah..I know.. Quite random.. Felt some brotherly love for him just now..was playin with
him.. Forget bout Zahier and Zahriel! pffft they too old.. malas nak layan lol






Peace!

Charcoal Charcoaaaalll

Some of the drawings I made...

Been Wanting to draw with charcoal for a long time and I finally did at some point of ma life lol
Eventhough it's not much cuz I didnt scan the others and I gave away some to Magic..


a drawing I made for roxxy :)


One of the elemental dragons I drew in a set for Magic..





As you can see..This wasnt drawn by me..It was a past drawing by someone dear to me last time, as gratitude I post it...
This is basically a drawing of me..lol.. He's an amazing drawer.. Always messing his hands with charcoal. Thanks for the drawing...


Feeling all emooooooooo
I shouldnt be..Big thing happening tommorow and I should be packing to kl now..
Hmm hamana hamana

WARNING: Long random rant

Hmmm...

I finally found out what kind of guys I go for o_o.. and I never knew it would be these traits..

Quiet, mysterious, out of the ordinary, different, intelligent, smarty-pants..

Gosh..

It's freaky..but they are so rawr! lol

I seem to like it when a guy is very intellegent in most things, be it animals, horoscopes, astronomy, life, history..it's so interesting..
I love it when a guy talks about something I dont know and Im able to ask questions that he is able to answer... I get so turned on! XD XD *mind my french lol*
Is that considered a fetish? I got no clue..looool

And owh! When I see a quiet guy in a corner when Im knocked up in a group of friends..I would try all my best to talk to him O__________o (realised that since first sem of degree)
When one of the dude have a big interest in philosophy..oooo! that's a plus plus! rawrrrr :B

When I was in high school, I had crushes on the clown in the class, rebels, and loudmouths..
I thought I would wind up with some guy who is like me? Guess not..
Why am I attracted to the weird ones now..?

Hmm..maybe that explains why I'm with Mo'men XD XD XD .. he is such a nerdy gangsta lol

And heyh! Those traits may seem like nerds, but I dont like those nerdy nerds..I like people who are well different..Nerds are just nerds..lol

And just recently..I watched Ong Bak 2!
I lubbed the main character!
I blubbered out that I wanted to marry him to my dad! loooool
I guess my girly insticts switched on O_o




He is freakin awesome... His skillsssssssss iz madzzzz

And yeah, guys with amazing skills of whatsover is another @_@


And I recently did a quiz on facebook on which horoscope matches with you?
The result was Aquarius O____O

You are most compatible with AQUARIUS! I'm sure most of your friends are Aquarians! Together you're going to rock! They are nearly always intelligent, concise, clear and logical. Aquarius are often felt to be unfathomable when in reality they live almost entirely on the surface .Aquarians will not reveal their innermost feelings no matter how hard others may try to persuade them, simply because they are unable to do so. People of this sign have a reputation for being enigmatic, difficult to understand, and different from everyone else, and cleverly play on this to gain power and attention.They are extremely friendly yet detached at a personal level, sociable in large gatherings, but unsociable at smaller meetings and parties which require greater intimacy. They are helpful and compassionate when involved with charities or group activities.

O_______o'
I expected gemini o somethin', cuz most of my close friends are geminis..
Ah..what the heck..its just a quiz :/

I am tres weird..

Please dont bother..Sincerely,
Nabz XD

Words

With words I could tell you all about the great kingdoms and countries that falls into fire,
With words I'm able to serenade and sweep you off your feet,
But alas, words are pretentious fucks that could tangle up your friend's/lover's feelings,
Such a say I have, But what could you do I have my rights,
Love you babe, yet I lie
You are nothing really, just a side benefit for myself,
Ahah, pity you say?
Well, why don't you believe my justly words?

With words Im able to tell you stories,
With words Im able to make you kiss me,
Such a powerful thing isn't it?
Use it well my friends/lovers

'Cause there's such a thing called karma that could bite you back :B

My hair is standing on it's ends..

Shitez..true story..
I never knew someone could do that just through the media of youtube.
Im freakin amazed with this dude..

Ryan Leslie

Dang..His beat making process..his publicity to the world..his smartness lol
Dude..This guy came to harvard when he was 17 and finished when he's a 19!
Shitezzzzz
Dude i aint i kiddin bout all this..
His songs are to die for.
I never knew about him till I hear his second single 'Addiction'
Dang!
I only knew about him more than that like a few hours ago O_O
Im amazed like hell!!

Dont take my word for it..
Check out his videos on youtube and he aint like other artists.
He's down to earth and awesome :D

He is something of an example to me. What I want to be.

He's a producer/songwriter/singer.
http://www.ryanleslie.com/

He was originally a producer for most of the great songs I like. The beats. The rhythm.
Gifted man!

Shitezzzzz

Im so freakin amazed right now..

I found a great idol :)

Monday, January 26th 2009 - Horoscope : Leo

Today is a splendid day to get married or start a new married life together with your special someone.

(EXACT WORDS IN 'THE STAR')

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Ok....
loooooooooool!






GONG XI FA CAI EVERYBODY :B

Go go power rangers!

A new headband :D

Yesh.. I am bored..lol! I started reading a book thou..and i started drawing again XD
I shall post ma charcoal drawing i did a minute ago ..much later! Lol..lazy..gotta scan it first..
So yeah, Nabz is still alive for the holidays and waiting on doing her L by tommorow hopefully :p
Will be busy with an event which I haven't been updating much with :p Hamady is gonna kill me XD XD I guess Ill be at cyber for awhile on thursday..Or tommorow O-o..
Dunno..

See how is ma laziness level is like..
Ill be workin again on wednesday =_= I tell ya kids are the worst when they go all talky and at the same time it seems cute yet its not 'all the time'.. =______=
I shall live for another day :p

Peace ya all!
We are all hamas..

A warning to shez...

Dear Shez,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but the mafia wants you. I think I realized it when I saw the shrunken head outside of Chicago and I saw you ignore Donald duck. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that your pimples are at the last stage . I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked embarrassing rash .

Go and drown yourself,

-Nabz-


Yes, shez..they are after you,lol! This is the most awesome-est tag i ever got XD XD!

Taggggg:
1.Danial
2.Mumble
3.Hasan
4.Bondiva

Dear _____, (the last person who left a comment on your blog/journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Your name-

Fill in the blanks with choices of answers as below:-

1. What's the color of your shirt?

Blue - Our romance is over

Red - Our affair is over

White - I'll join the monastery

Black - I dislike you

Green - Our horoscope doesn't match

Grey - You're a pervert

Yellow - I'm selling myself

Pink - Your nostrils are insulting

Brown - The mafia wants you

No shirt - You're a loser

Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?

January - That night

February - Last year

March - When your dwarf bit me

April - When I tripped on sesame seeds

May - First of May

June - When you put cuffs on me

July - When I threw up

August - When I saw the shrunken head

September - When we skinny dipped

October - When I quoted Santa

November - When your dog ran amok

December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?

Tacos - In your apartment

Pizza - In your camping car

Pasta - Outside of Chicago

Hamburgers - Under the bus

Salad - As you ate enchilada

Chicken - In your closet

Kebab - With Paris Hilton

Fish - In women's clothing

Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation

Lasagna - At the mental hospital

Hot dog - Under a state of trance

None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?

Yellow - Hit on

Red - Insult

Black - Ignore

Blue - Knock out

Purple - Pour syrup on

White - Carve your initials into

Grey - Pull the clothes off

Brown - Put leeches on

Orange - Castrate

Pink - Pull the toupee off

Barefoot - Sit on

Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?

Black - My best friend

White - My father

Grey - Bill Clinton

Brown - My fart balloon

Purple - My mustard soufflé

Red - Donald Duck

Blue - My avocado plant

Yellow - My penpal in Ghana

Orange - My Kid Rock-collection

Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper

None - My John F. Kennedy-statue

Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?

Scrubs - Man

O.C. - Emotional

One Tree Hill - Open

Heroes - Frostbitten

Lost - High

House - Scared

Simpsons - Cowardly

The news - Mongolic

Idol - Masochistic

Family Guy - Senile

Top Model - Middle-class

None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?

Happy - How awful I've felt

Sad - How boring you are

Bored - That Santa doesn't exist

Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage

Depressed - That we're cousins

Excited - That there is no solution to this

Nervous - The middle-east

Worried - That your Honda sucks

Apathetic - That I did a sex-change

Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster

Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men

Overjoyous - That I'm open

Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?

White - Your ring

Yellow - Your love letters

Red - Your Darth Vader-poster

Black - Your tame stone

Blue - The couch cushions

Green - The pictures from LA

Orange - Your false teeth

Brown - Your contact book

Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs

Purple - Your old lottery coupons

Pink - How awful I've felt

Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?

A/B - Your photo

C/D - The oil stocks

E/F - Your neighbour Martin

G/H - My virginity

I/J - The results of your blood-sample

K/L - Your left ear

M/N - Your suicide note

O/P - My common sense

Q/R - Your mom

S/T - Your collection of butterflies

U/V - Your criminal record

W/X - David's tricot outfits

Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?

A/B - Hate your guts

C/D - Never will forget

E/F - Always wanted to break

G/H - Never openly mocked

I/J - Always have felt dirty before

K/L - Will tell the authorities about

M/N - Told in my confession today about

O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about

Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about

S/T - Get sick when I think of

U/V - Always will try to forget

W/X - Am better off without

Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?

Water- Our friendship

Beer - Senility

Soft drink - A new life as a clone

Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo

Milk - The apartment building

Wine - Cocaine abuse

Cider - A passionate interest for mice

Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations

Mineral water - Embarrassing rash

Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism

Whisky - To ruin the second world war

Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?

Thailand - Warm regards

USA - Best regards

England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail

Spain - Go and drown yourself

China - Disgusting regards

Germany - With ease

Japan - Go burn

Greece - Your everlasting enemy

Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard

Egypt - Fuck off now

France - In pain