A new track on life

Life has been... haha hectic.

No matter what, the road is still long and blurry at the end.
I may not know how it will end but I'm molding myself into something which i have never foreseen and all I can hope is for the better.

I had to..sacrifice..
I had to..be patient..
I had to do many..

May not be the best out there now, but I know it means alot of what I decided upon.

"I'm not born to follow"

I'm making my own decisions, I hope I wont fall..


Peace

Sawadikap!

Im sipping on some hot chocolate and typing this is on Microsoft words cause there’s no wi-fi here in the coffee house, turtle village.

Guess where I am? Hehe, I’m at phuket xD I feel so classy right now, having a drink in some luxurious coffee house with a laptop. Im still in shock that I am actually outside Malaysia right now, I thought I would be stuck for another year or two. But its happening, and it feelssss…weird. Haha. Im here with la familia. And ya know what, the reason we’re able to come here is because J.W Marriot hotel gave the offer of 5 days 4 nights free stay to my mother’s friend and she passed it along to us. Bless your soul friend of my mother’s XD

First off, I’m having holiday for 5 days here but the day after or so I’ll be having exams :/ and currently I have to reside to doing my assignments at night in the hotel.

Its alright, I feel..good doing assignments here better than anywhere else. I can actually finish my Accounting Information System II assignment (a part of it) In an hour. I was surprised and wasn’t motioned to facebook for every minute whilst doing it. How weird..lol.

Phuket is alright, has an atmosphere similar to Malacca and Penang. :D They say Bangkok is like Kuala Lumpur, would try to go there if I can (once I get my moolah).

Once I finish off another assignment (business law or da other part of AIS assignment or knw. Economy) I might go check out Phutong, heart of phuket. Most travelers go there, and its like 2 hours drive from here :/ J.W Marriot is located right next to the airport and basically near the entrance of Phuket. How convenient , lol.

It’s the second day here..So I’ll take my time and finish up the assignments by tonight hopefully, reason is Im given 24 hours free internet services. So gotta make full use of it and study my managerial accounting :/ Heyh, Im still having fun alright not just studies..lol.

Will write more later. I need to finish my egg benedict :p .

Cheers peeps!

IM IN LOVE

La la la~

Cheers to all :D

Unpredictable and doubtful..
Life is,
I am,
And so are you behind that mask,

I wonder at the thoughts of living life, love and many others,
I do not want to wonder or wish for a day, would love to see how a different a day in my mind.
Is it possible to not wonder about your love each day,
Why is it hard for me if it's not for you.

Is it fading..?
Ahah, there I go with 'love'
I wonder if it is true, I wonder too much about it..
I guess I am lover, not a fighter,
Yet I fight with it,
Causing havoc in my mind every single time,
Clashing thoughts and wonders

oh how you trouble me..

Leave me be for once, I beg you..

I beg for wings,
I beg for memories..
No more, I live the way it is at this moment,
*sigh*
It has always been a say..

Frustation

Do not look at them!
Do not listen to them!
Think back of your good memories..
Laugh away the fear or complications
It may seem wrong from a third person's view but we do what we do,
Fuck them thoughts
Accept it and move on
Take it as a lesson
A lesson that does not bore but entertains others
Laughing at you, fixing their view of you
Laugh at them instead
Hide behind that mask
Protect your heart

Life so far 2009

I learn alot and I can safely say I have grown out of my childlike self..But of course the child is in here all the time. My mindset has changed and I remember reminding myself through paper yearly, well technology takes over..

I think I wrote a post earlier on about last year, if Im not mistaken..lazy to see..

Im amazed with myself..not being a total selfish dumbass o anythin

Just amazed with the progress and lessons people learn in one life, I learn from others, I dont learn from books.. Even studies, basic studies in uni I learn through word of mouth not text.
I dont know whether this applies to others, but it does to me.

Im learning to improve myself in every possible way, Im learning through the smallest things like presentation in class, to djclub to big things like magic :) I love learning! its awesome!
And owh owh! Im reading now..Finished 3 books, currently reading the last series for lian hearn, the choronical of the otory clan..awesome book, thanks alisya!

Gawd..why am I rambling when I have tons to read for exam tommorow..lol
=_= o well..

I cant wait to ride that plane and see new places..its getting closer I can feel it :)

Rawr! Life goals being fulfilled lil by lil, gonna savour in them.. *stomach grumbles*

K time for my favourite part of my daily activities, fooddd :B

Peace ya'all!

Message

Life never seems to be what you want it to be,
Said not to distance and eyes,
I have forsaken what most others would think is worthless,
Felt not the feelings,
I am lying,
If only comes to minds at all times,
I want this and I want that,
My heart no..my soul..grief in sadness,
life never seems to be what you wan it to be

Fear not for I have forsaken them,
And nothing can be done even with words i have said,
I cant change reality,
yet I alter the fantasy too many times,
Fall down my dear,
Fall down..
Its time to walk on the pavement,
Tear not my dear,
For theres many in life..