India arie feat. Akon - I am not my hair

[Akon]
See I can kinda recall
Little ways back small tryin' to bawl
Always been black and my hair I tried it all
I even went flat, had a gumdee curly top and all the crap, now
Tryin' to be appreciated
Nappy headed brothers never had no ladies
Then I hit by the barber shop real quick
Had em give me little twist and it drove them crazy
And then I couldn't get no job
No corporate wouldn't hire no dreadlocks
Then I thought about my dogs on the block
Kinda understand why they chose a stealin' rock
Was it the hair that got me this far? (uh-huh)
All these girls these cribs these cars (uh-huh)
Hate to say it but it seem so flawed
Cause success didn't come 'till i cut it all off (uh-huh)

[India Arie]
Little girl with the press and curl
Age eight I got a Jheri curl
Thirteen then I got a relaxer
I was a source of so much laughter
Fifteen when it all broke off
Eighteen and then I went all natural
February two thousand and two I
Went and did what I had to do
Cause it was time to change my life
To become the women that I am inside
Ninety-seven dreadlocks all gone
Looked in the mirror for the first time and saw that
Hey...

[Chorus]
I am not my hair
I am not this skin
I am not your ex-pec-tations no no
I am not my hair
I am not this skin
I am a soul that lives within

[India Arie]
Good hair means curls and waves
Bad hair means you look like a slave
At the turn of the century
It's time for us to redefine who we be
You can shave it off like a South African beauty
Or get in on lock like Bob Marley
You can rock it straight like Oprah Winfrey
If its not what's on your head
It's what's underneath and say
Hey....

[Chorus]

[Akon]
Who cares if you don't like that
With nothin' to lose post it with a wave cap
When the cops tryin' to harass
Cause I got waves
But he's sayin' nothin' like that
Not in my days (noo...)
Now you gotta change all feeling's
Based on one another by their appearance
Yes, India I feel ya girl
Now go on and talk the rest of the world

[India Arie]
(oh, oh, oh)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? nooo...
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
I am expressing my creativity...

[India Arie]
Breast cancer and chemotherapy
Took away her crown and glory
She promised God if she was to survive
She would enjoy everyday of her life ooh...
On national television
Her diamond eyes are sparkling
Bald headed like a full moon shining
Singing out to the whole wide world like
Hey...

Gah, I wanna cut my hair bald..lol

Mary J blige - What love is

This song is beautifully done..hear it and read the lyrics. Its awesome :)

beautiful, horrible, magical
terrible, reason to laugh and smile
reasons to cry yourself to sleep at night

Start a fight
make up, break up
wrong or right
heaven for all it's worth
can equally be held right here on earth

and no one really knows anything about it

but everybody needs it
we cant live without it

and that's the way it goes

dark as day, bright as night
just some other things you might

here, if you ask what love feels like
and it feels like joy, and it feels like pain
and it feels like sunshine, feels like rain
an exuse for dying, reason to live
and if you dont know, that's what love is
love

gentle kiss, sweet caress
kiss the base, of your neck
argue until my head
hurts I cant remember what you said
I screaming loud
dont know what we're screaming about
so confusing,yes it's true
but if it wasnt there
what would we do

and no one really knows anything about it

but everybody needs it
we cant live without it

and that's the way it goes

dark as day, bright as night
just some other thing you might


here, if you ask what love feels like
and it feels like joy, and it feels like pain
and it feels like sunshine, feels like rain
an exuse for dying, reason to live
and if you dont know, that's what love is
love is


owwwww

That's love

anything that can bring you up or bring you down

That's love

in the sun up in your sky on the darkest clouds

That's love

and we need it

That's love

and we need it

That's love


Asking me body how it feels
and it feels like joy, and it feels like pain
and it feels like sunshine, feels like rain
an exuse for dying, reason to live
and if you dont know, that's what love is
love is

and it feels like joy, and it feels like pain
and it feels like sunshine, feels like rain
an excuse for dying, reason to live
and if you dont know, that's what love is
love is


owwww

that's it

My life 2008

I usually write to myself at every end of a year... I know I'm weird.
I was reminiscing like an old man just now cause I saw my past letters to myself.
I was laughing back when I read how many crushes I had :p
In 2005, I had like 3 or 4 crushes ..and 1 girl looool
2006, 3 crushes..XD XD

I did write for 2007, but I do not know where I put it.. Lost it :(
I cant believe the number of questions I ask myself..I manage to answer some of them..through experience..
I was so poetic in 2005 loooool
Hmm..
I quoted for each year too..
'Wings..Do you see an angel's or a devil's?' -2005
'Love is nothing but lust. Or kiss me and tell me I'm wrong' -2006

I was crazy about finding theories of love..lol xD

Well I wrote for the other years..but I cant find them..
I think most of them I wrote in my diaries..

Come to think of it.. I never wrote in my diary in such a long time..Lazy..lol
Another reason why is because I feel satisfied with my life after a long time.. I dont know why but it seems like I never came out from my cage till now..

I feel free :)

I wanna relive my childhood..
I want a happy ending...
I will chase after my dreams, Nobody gonna stop me now :)

Gonna stop crying and stand up on my own..
Forget the past and look far
I feel so happy all sudden..
Ahah..I feel happy and teary :)

I wanna thank to those people which I seem to trust better now..
You know who you are, I 'belanja-ed' you guys christmas hi-tea/dinner, and some others and
that magical dude.

After longs eons, lol.. I can hug people freely too..

p.s: I am not emo..lol. Just feel so positive about myself suddenly. I'm learning to cope with myself, yesh Im a retard..lol

Ill be writing the letter when Jan 1 come by, you know what I'll just write it here..


My life 2008

I love my life. :)



Peace!

WHAT I GOT FOR CHRISTMAS xD XD

AWESOMENESS!!!

A new beginning is coming..

Well 2008 is gonna be over soon... and so is my teenage years..
SOOOOOONNN I SHALL PREVAILL AS AN ADULTTTT
RAWRRRRR!!

Cant wait :p :p

*WARNING: Random thought*
You know what, till now..I am still short..
=_= Is there such a thing to make me taller? I wonder..
I heard about a mechanism that actually makes you taller by stretching your arm and legs (yeah similar to the great ye-old punishment machine in the dark ages XD XD) o____o
I wanna try that! Sounds awesome and promising lol.
......
...

Alrighty, since the new year is coming..
I shall make a list of what-to-do.. (ex: stop smokin' etc..)

NABZ AWESOMELY AWESOME THINGS TO DO FOR 2009:

1. Gain some abs (stomach muscles)
2. Groom myself better (long hair, facial, crap, crap..lol) (for the sake of momen and mama)
3. Learn how to use photoshop (need to learnnnnn)
4. Be able to do the helicopter move (breakdance)
5. Backpacking trip to at least one country out there ( was thinkin europe but mahal..)
6. Raise my cgpa to 3.5 (gambatte!)
7. Try to draw a full canvas (with paint if possible)
8. Join pole dancing classes *wink wink*
9. Love the 3 M's better (Mummy, mo'men, and money :p :p)
10. Get my driving license O_____o

Yeahhhhhh!!!
Heyh, how bout you guys try this :p
Make a list of what-to-do for 2009.
And 'DO-THEM'..dont just say it :)
Merry xmas and a happy new year ppl!

Hip Hop

I know many people say hip hop is nothing but bling bling and women with big boobies..

YOU'RE SO WRONG!

What you see in the tv is all the so called hip hop with money from their agency and all..
The real hip hop all lies in the history and its still shining bright.
You just gotta look properly and clear you're eyes.

Common, Lupe Fiasco, NERD, Kanye west, and to some who dont believe Young Jeezy, Nas..

I bet most of you say..Who are they???

Well that means you dont know the real hip hop. Dont Judge things from one dimension..

And yeah some of you say, its all words..yeah IT IS all words..words that comes toegther and make rhymes and meaning..It is kinda fast yeah, but I can understand 'em.
Once again, if any of you say that you hate hip hop..think back.are those really hip hop??
They aint!
I feel so uneasy when people say how could you like all those stuff?
iehfpiahefe~~!

Ill show you some hip hop..








Lupe Fiasco
Hes a muslim rapper, African American. Listen to his lyrics, read them, they give meaning, they not all crap..
He did a remix of Muhammad Walk, Kick Push..
Download them if you dont believe me.








Common and Nas
They wrote songs of freedom. Kinda like bob marley in a rap version. Songs like The people, Corners and I have a dream.. Dont know much about Nas thou, cant reach for any his album here..

Even Wii.L.i.am did a song for barrack obama's presidental election. Lil Wayne and T pain is actually awesome, ya know their song get money is actually about helpin the needy, lol

Bet most of you dont even know they do charity most of the time..And yes all those songs where they say they come from 'the ghetto' . ITS ALL TRUE MAN..
They been throught hell..They give at all back, with a heart and honesty. Have you ever heard of a rapper taking drugs and going all crazy in tabloids we see today? Not that much..lol

I know some of you know underground rock music, I listen to underground rap :p
Yeah and another thing rap isnt the same as rnb. They rap, they say quotes, they give hope and dreams and their stories of their past..

Underground rap Im watching is traphik and before was Lupe Fiasco, but now he kinda got into the mainstream and he's doing great.
Traphik is a philipino.. (Pinoy ..bebot bebot) but he stays in the USA.

My all time favourite rappers are Jay Z, and if you guys dont believe..Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park,lol ( I lurve linkin park too :p :p), NERD, Mary J Blige, Keysha Cole, Massari (hes arabian but he raps in english too), Ludachris, LL Cool J, Machi Di di (Chinese), ..alot more but cant remember now..

So yeah, to all you out there..Dont look at things on one dimension, look far and deep and if possible never judge things or people. We all human aite.

Owh owh, and if you guys wanna know the cool old skool hip hop watch the movie brown sugar..its awesome :) and 50 cent (gawd i saw alot of guys asses..it was..scary..)

Malaysia own hip hop stream aint that bad either.. Too Phat is alright but they talk about playing around with girls alot..lol.
What comin up good is Ariz Ramli, Caprice..his songs are awesome and raising up

Big up, to russell simmons :D he helped all those rappers like LL cool J, and bestie boys. Def Jam records, Ambasador of Hip Hop. He did loads..

And theres gonna be Notorious BIG movie, next year..

Hip Hop